I find it so amusing how everyday it’s proven to me a little more how shitty, unreliable, organic pieces of waste humans really are. And how you should never let one, or any, define your happiness to the least bit. Because they will fail you. Never give anyone expectations.
I find it a little disturbing that after only 16 years I can’t rely on or trust a single human being. I mean, it’s a little early to find out how disgusting and useless people really are. It takes a lot of life’s meaning away. And I’m very well a human as well. And can fall under all these categories. And maybe i’ll spend my life trying to prove myself wrong. Or I’ll end it, knowing that nothing about this is going to change, and all of this is just the beginning. Just the beginning to a terrible ending. That this is just a taste of what is ahead. Am I suppose to be strong and fight through it? Why would I want to? Break through one wall just to run into another? Is that what I really want my life to be? Or is there more than that? I mean I’d like to say I know there’s more than that. But I’m starting to doubt it. It’s all a piece of shit. Because I can’t look at someone and find the good in them how I use to. All I can see is the same structure composed and written by the utter most disgusting replicas around them.
I am confident that I have lost all faith in humanity. I am in desperate need to change this, and the only person I can rely on is myself. If that.
