Just trying to not kill myself

Practical and stupid. You make me sick. What are you trying to do to yourself? Where the fuck do you think it is that you’re going in life like this? Your thoughts are right but wrong. They make you into this. So how do you go in between? How do you bring back what you’ve lost. What you were is not something you want to be again. So don’t go back. It’s self-destructive. Why don’t you just fucking realize it then, because I have.